Suicidal Media

There are so many different names for social media; honestly you could just replace my title with whatever it means to you. Keep this title in mind though, because I’m going to thoroughly explain to you the “what, how, & why” of my perspective. Before we get started, let’s define the meaning of suicidal:


  • Deeply unhappy or depressed and likely to commit suicide.
  • Relating to or likely to lead to suicide.
  • Likely to have a disastrously damaging effect on one’s self or one’s interests.

Now let’s switch it up a bit, reverse the definitions, and allow me point out what’s likely to have a disastrously damaging effect on one’s self or one’s interests, how it’s relating to or likely to lead to suicide, and why you’re deeply unhappy or depressed and likely to commit suicide. Doesn’t that just flow together so perfectly? Let’s get into it!

How big of a role does social media play in your life? When you wake up in the morning, or middle of the night, what’s the first thing you do? Reach for your phone? Go to the first social media app that’s on your mind, and catch up on the TL? Even if that’s not the first thing you do, let me tell you what’s so damaging about too much intake of social media. Do you ever feel like you’re offended and you don’t know why? Do you ever feel judged? Insecure? Alone and not good enough? We have the whole world at our fingertips, yet we still feel isolated. We live in desolation, yet we get on social media, everyday just to see what other people’s lives are like, and what they’re up to. Have you noticed how social media has turned into a world wind of opinions? Do you realize you’re reading the opinions of others’, day in and day out? Aren’t they stuck in your head? Everybody’s the fashion police or the person that decides how significant you are, based on where you work or how you live. Don’t you think of them before you post a selfie, a status, or share a life changing event? Now, imagine what your mental health and love for yourself would be like, if you monitored the time you spend feeding into other people’s obnoxious thoughts and negative attitudes. What if you just took 3 days off to focus on yourself and clear your mind of the opinions of others’? How much of a positive impact that would be on thoughts related to or likely to lead to suicide!

Why are you deeply unhappy and/or depressed, you ask? Because you are consumed with the thoughts and opinions of others’, which leads to over-thinking, then low self-esteem, then insecurity. All of a sudden you’re seeking the approval of others. You feel unloved, even though you are truly adored. You feel like other people’s lives are better than yours. You feel like you aren’t where you should be in life, based on where someone else is in life, at your age or even younger. You compare yourself, constantly. Second guess yourself, and will even be having a pretty good day, until you get on social media, scrolling! We already have thousands of thoughts to deal with on our own, but then we have the nerve to get on social media, and add to them?! By tending to other people’s lives?! This is what slows us down. This is what keeps us from investing in ourselves and our dreams. This is what keeps us from accomplishing our goals. You ever told yourself you were gonna let go of the negativity in your life, but then got on social media, and went right back to it? Social media can be whatever we make it to be, but let’s be honest, there is A LOT of negative content on there, and depending on what kind of head space you’re in, what are you gonna pay more attention to??? Learn to take care of your heart and mind! Be mindful of what you allow IN! The Word of God says think on these things! ..whatever is true, honorable, right, pure, and lovely.. Philippians 4:8.

Ultimately, it’s up to you if you want to be happy or depressed, positive or negative, but I promise you, if you just START with taking some time OFF of social media, you’ll see how much of a difference it makes in your mental state of being. You think you’ll be bored without it, but honestly it makes things better. You know it’s our thoughts that lead to our actions, anyway, which is why people turn to suicide. But that’s another blog for another time. This isn’t any research based scientific facts or anything, just pure life lessons I’ve learned through experiences and a perspective to take into consideration. I pray this helps someone. Don’t hesitate to do whatever it is you need to do to add peace to your life. We only have ONE to live!



Stop entertaining potential & prepare yourself for the real thing.

Practice makes perfect, right? Sometimes practice can be poison. Testing the waters? Dating with no purpose? Allowing this & that one into your personal space, over & over again? & you wonder why you’re drained, frustrated, & impatient. Love is something we all long for, but continually trying to force something that doesn’t fit will only damage us in the end. There’s a void that needs to be filled, but instead of us allowing God to pour into us, we put our time & attention into meaningless relationships & friendships that only take from us & deposit more insecurities, toxicity, & emptiness into that same void we so badly want to be filled. Naturally, we crave love & physical affection, having someone in the flesh to talk to, because it’s so much easier than trying to connect with God, right? But that will never amount to the love God has for you, & the little bit of love you choose to entertain doesn’t even compare to the soul mate God has set aside just for you. Do you realize what I just said?? JUST FOR YOU. You won’t have to share or fight to be their only one. Not number one, but ONLY one. That’s the joy of waiting on God; it’s ALWAYS worth it. Waiting isn’t fun but the promise is fulfilling.

Dear Lord God, forgive me for believing that I could fill the void. Lord, I give You permission to interrupt the pattern. Help me to put my focus back into You & Your will for my life. Heal my broken heart, Jesus. Hurt people, hurt people & I no longer want to play a part in the break down of myself or others. Wrap me in Your love, God, & remind me of my worth so that I don’t make the mistake of trying to find it in others. The ONLY relationship I need is one with You. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.

John 15:13



“You, on your BEST day is still only LIMITED to what GOD can do! We know the signs & wonders of The Bible to be true, yet we live in the (boundaries) of who we (think) God to be. We quote Hebrews 11:1, but take the easy way out! FAITH is the EVIDENCE of things NOT SEEN!!!! Which means we gotta believe God for MORE than what we’ve ALREADY seen Him do! We gotta believe that He’ll turn our disaster into destiny with just ONE touch! We gotta look past “our” what seems to be “impossible” circumstances & look at ALL the possibilities of God bringing us out! We say we want this from God, but don’t have the FAITH to withstand it. What’s the point in even wanting it done, if you don’t truly BELIEVE God WILL do it?! EXCEEDINGLY & ABUNDANTLY ABOVE ALL THAT WE COULD ASK OR THINK! No more business as usual! Put FAITH to the test & say “God, I’ll be the one.” How are you gonna SEE a miracle if you don’t believe Him for one? We don’t serve a small God, so don’t think small! Don’t ask for just enough to get by. Make BOLD requests & be FAITH-FULL enough to believe that God will answer! He’s got your back! His word will NEVER return to Him VOID! It’s 2018, the year of signs & wonders! Move those mountains! Don’t be scared! You’ve tried everything else, why not try FAITH!

“Now all glory to God, who is able, through His mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.”

Ephesians 3:20

29 weeks ago, (February-ish??) I wrote that in my notes on my Bible app, not even knowing the amount of faith it was gonna take me to get through this year! To be honest, I struggled with faith for a while. I just didn’t get it! I didn’t understand that it was the ACT of believing that God would come through! I was reading a bible plan one day, & that scripture, Ephesians 3:20, nearly jumped off the screen at me! It hit me! I was like O.M.G., you mean to tell me I’ve kept You in a box ALL this time? (me, talking to God lol) What God showed me through this scripture that day is, I’ve been believing small. It’s not that it was wrong, it was just that He wanted me to gain TRUST in HIM. & what better way than to BELIEVE for something I thought was unobtainable, unreachable, impossible?

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THIS blew my mind, y’all! I was like wowwwwwwww, I finally get it lol. I had finally reached a new level in my relationship with God, & I couldn’t be more stoked! So y’all already know I was crazy enough to put my faith to the test lol. & so far this entire year has been full of nothing but answered prayers & mind blowing miracles right before my lil eyes. But of course the enemy has been right there, every step of the way, trying to snatch my joy & make me doubt God, after each blessing. It hasn’t been easy & for the past few days, my fire’s been a little dim, so God led me to my bible app notes, & there was this gem. It woke me up! It was only right that I share, especially since this is my first blog of the month.

I hope this encourages someone to HAVE FAITH! & not just any kind of faith, but RADICAL FAITH. Go big, or go home! My God ain’t no wimp, so let’s not treat Him as such. 😌 Lean not on your own understanding, but TRUST The Lord with ALL your heart. Be blessed, my loves! & have a FAITH-FILLED week! 🦋