Ok, so I have a somewhat embarrassing confession to make, don’t judge me either! Lol I’m sure someone can relate..
I have a passion for people (which is crazy to even say now, because I was super antisocial & awkward growing up. I honestly didn’t care to even be around people) but anyway, I have this passion that sometimes leads to me going places in my head, like I’ll imagine myself speaking to a crowd of people, encouraging them, praying for them, just being God’s vessel. I’ll even preach to myself sometimes, chile. 😂 so earlier, while I was praying & talking to God, it turned into one of my “sermons” & I asked the “congregation” 😂😂 “y’all ready for the Lord to CUT some things out of your life? Y’all ain’t ready to have surgery!” 🤦🏽♀️😭
But then I stopped because I’m like oh wow Lord that’s a word right there!! (At this point I’m hype 😂 I had to hurry up & get out the shower, so I could start writing)
Immediately God said to me, “Going through with surgery is a commitment. Once I do it, it can’t be undone. That thing you want me to fix can only be fixed with your consent. (Your will) (You’ve got to sign on the dotted line!) performing surgery will SURELY bring about a change that will alter your entire life, but you don’t want that! You wanna keep trying to fix it on your own. You wanna try to manipulate it as much as you can & then come to me like here God, I made it a little better. Put your magic touch on it, so I can keep it in my life! I won’t do it as much, I promise. I know how to turn it on & off now, so it won’t control my life. I fixed it now, so you don’t have to take it completely away!” 😩
(we’re always trying to bargain with God smh)
We say we want change, but our problem is, we want it to be suitable for us.. convenience.. that’s temporary! Which is why we do good for a while, then fall right back.. God wants to do surgery. It’s permanent. Once He cuts that thing up & out, it’s gone forever. God wants to do miraculous works IN & THROUGH us, but there are things we have to allow HIM to change. We can’t change them in our own strength & for some of us, it’s getting to the point where it won’t be changed at our “own leisure” of “choosing” to “let go & let God” it will be snatched from our grip because it’s slowly killing us & those connected to us…..
The thought of surgery is scary, but it’s just that deep, because we’ve been living with these flaws for so long… it’s gonna take more than praying & going to church to fix it. It’s time for GOD to lay HIS hands on us! You ready?!
“And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart. 27) And I will put my spirit in you so that you will follow my decrees and be careful to obey my regulations.”
Ezekiel 36:26-27 (NLT) 🦋