You’re Going Places!

Back in March, I shared a portion of my personal life with you guys in relation to a very tough season I had gone through, & I am truly blessed to say that life, for me, has progressed even more for the better, since then! It brings me great joy to know that every 30 days, I’m not the same as I was before. This year, so far, has had its ups & downs, but I’m thankful for the transformation, because I was once one of those people that went from one place to another with the same mentality.

Mentally, I was BOUND.

No matter where I was, in life, my mind kept me stuck on what used to be, & honestly, I never realized that until recently! As I stated in my last blog, God has moved me to Texas! I shared my testimony on my Facebook page, https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001410636973 (for anyone who may want to read, I believe it’ll brighten your day!) Anyway, since I’ve gotten here, which was only on the 2nd of this month, old feelings, comforts, & ways of thinking, have continually come up, trying to stop me from accepting & embracing this NEW start! I was so used to the same old thing, that my mind literally went into shock & a part of me wanted to shut down & go straight into sadness turned loneliness, turned depression, because of the unfamiliar,

BUT GOD!

I began to pray against that spirit of bondage, & instantly my mind was made new! That spirit wants so badly for me to dwell on what was. It wanted to set up blockage in my mind that wouldn’t allow me to fully take hold of this blessing & journey anew, but I fought back! & that’s what I want to encourage someone to do today. Forget the old & go forth into the new! Because you’ll only get as far as you’re willing to go. Notice, I said willing because it’s gonna take DRIVE! You can dream all day, but that’s all it will ever be without your willingness to make a change. RENEW your mind & get rid of the excuses. You don’t need what someone else has. YOU HAVE IT IN YOU! I challenge you to change your thoughts toward yourself & your situation. FORGIVE those who have hurt you & FORGET about your past, because it doesn’t determine your FUTURE! You are brave enough, smart enough, & good enough. God loves you.

For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.”

Isaiah 43:19

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Goodbye comfort. Hello calling!

Hey y’all! It’s been a minute! I looked at my blog posts & I was like man I’ve only posted one blog this month! Oh na, I gotta do something about that! I mean, I’ve been writing, but God hasn’t led me to share anything, but as I was going over my notes & journaling, God said “encourage them” in that sweet, sound voice that He has. 😍 I just love it. So I’m like YES! Because I’ve been waiting on Him to give me another encouraging word for His people lol. ☺️ so let us take a moment to pray, before diving in…

Father God, I open my heart to RECEIVE whatever it is that YOU are trying to say to ME on THIS day, through these words. Lord, remove ALL stubbornness that will hinder me from a possible chance of growth, a NEW perspective, & a transformation of my MIND! In Jesus name, Amen.

GOD IS NOT CALLING YOU TO COMFORT! & now that you know this, I’m gonna need you to BELIEVE it! & ACT on that belief! If it’s contrary to God’s word or what you KNOW He promised you, SEND IT BACK! If that friend isn’t happy for you or tries to talk you out of what you KNOW God said, SEND IT BACK! If anybody tries to tell you you’re dreaming too big, or that’s not what God wants for you, or you sure God said that? SEND IT BACK! If thoughts of doubt & fear come to your mind, concerning God’s promised future to you, SEND IT BACK! & be sure to SLAM that door shut & SEAL it with 2 Timothy 1:7 & Jeremiah 29:11 because God did NOT create you to fear & He KNOWS His plans for you!

Cover yourself in prayer! Keep telling God what you KNOW he’s gonna do for you because HE SAID IT! Don’t get discouraged! Don’t think you’re crazy because your life doesn’t match His declaration! NOT YET! I promise you it’s on the way. You can guarantee that the GOOD things you ask of God, He’ll grant you. Don’t be shocked when it shows up either. Just remind yourself that this is what you PRAYED for! In DUE time God will pour out a blessing you barely have room enough to receive! 😩 in the meantime, trust HIM. Focus on HIM. Get rid of all side talk, all negativity, all “fake happy” for you friends. Get somewhere & HIDE in Jesus. Don’t tell nobody what He told you, you just keep talking to Him! It ain’t gotta make sense to nobody but you & God! HE wrote your life, not people!

So I just wanna encourage someone to not give up on that prayer you’ve been bringing to God. Continue to give your best, even in the worst situations. Continue to believe God even if you don’t see things coming together. I promise y’all IT WILL WORK OUT. But you must understand that everything is on His timing, not yours. Please, just be still. Even if you feel like you’re on the verge of a breakdown, go to God. He’ll comfort you. Nothing is too hard or too complicated for Him. You keep believing Jesus!!! Ain’t nobody gotta believe with you, but it’s ok because they will all be looking crazy when they SEE that HE DID IT!!!!

I pray that everyone has a safe & happy 4th! I know I will, because God is sending this small town girl to TEXAS!!!!!!! Yes, my ministry to God will continue there. 😁 but I’ll get into all of that on another blog. Be blessed y’all! I love you guys, so much! 💛

Philippians 4:6🦋

It gets personal!

We read the Bible & buy books & complete bible plans online, just to say we did something. We go to church to hear the word, but we don’t leave church & LIVE it. We put on our best dressed Sunday after Sunday, bring our pen & pad to bible study every Wednesday night, but we APPLY those notes to almost nothing. We take in all this teaching, guidance, & correction for what? When will we really take the TIME to UNDERSTAND & ACT on these things, so that we KNOW to YIELD to what’s right the next time we get weak. The next time something comes up. The next time we go out into the world, saying we love God, but don’t show it in our character??

We’re quick to say “oh, Church was good today! The sermon was on… (quotes scripture & adds perspective)” but what of that do we sit & really ponder on? What of that do we actually put in TIME (because it’s gn take some sacrificial TIME) to get a real understanding, so that we can apply it to our life, because it is for our GOOD! It’s just like studying in school. Some of us study just so we can pass the test.. so we can get a good grade & carry on. Some of us use different resources, like our friends’ work or our neighbors’ paper to make it LOOK like we studied. Then some of us actually study to know the answer to that question no matter how it’s asked, or when it may show up, because we UNDERSTAND that we may need this information later on in life, not just right now in this moment!

If you’re not following me yet, you’re about to! Let me just keep it real right quick!! See, tonight God laid this on me good, (I was like ouch) because He said to me, “you just wanna feel like you doing something. That’s why you read these books & watch these sermons & that’s even why you don’t miss a day on that bible app, because if you lose that streak, you’re gonna feel like well Dang, what was I doing? How did I miss a day? But what’s a streak on your bible app when you haven’t prayed in 2 weeks, unless it was asking for forgiveness?

*adds emphasis* (well dang wyd???? How you ain’t prayed in 2 weeks????) 😭

Yes, you read my word, highlight a few scriptures, commit yourself to a 40 day bible plan, but what about me? Where’s my 40 days? My EVERY day? Bible plans, sermons on YouTube, & this book you “felt” led to purchase, doesn’t equate to your spending time with ME. Just me. See, you do all that, so you won’t have to do the REAL work. You know you REALLY need to get on your face & pray & cry out to me, but what do you do instead, to make it seem like you done did something? You get on that app & you find yourself a bible plan to read. Just because it relates to what you’re going through doesn’t mean it’s gonna fix your problem! I AM the healer. I AM the chain breaker. I AM the provider. I AM the one who saved you, who covered you from danger seen & unseen. But you run to every resource, but me. What’s up with that?? You say you need me, then you try to fix it on your own. I AM ALL of who & what you need. Familiarize yourself with ME instead of the Bible plans, the positive quotes, the so called inspiring ppl that you follow on social media. Because of all those resources, now you can’t even hear me. Your mind is all over the place. You get worried about something, so you come to me with prayer, & you can’t even decipher between all the different voices & opinions & things that you’ve read & seen because you’re taking in everyone’s perspective, but not MY promise. If you just took the time to know me for yourself & not relate your walk with everything you take in through the media, THEN you just might elevate.” 😩

Ooooooo y’all 😩😩😩 it gets really real when God snatches up my undivided attention because bayyybeh! I was not expecting that convo! I was minding my business, called myself writing down a heartfelt prayer & He SHOOK me with this okay!!! All I could do was repent! 😭

So let’s not worry about the opinions & thoughts & lives of others, but let’s get to know God for ourselves. Not through somebody else, or through a book, an app or a sermon, but literally one on one with God & our bible, which is HIS word. All the Bible plans in the world won’t connect us to God the way we NEED them to. We can’t replace Him with things. We can’t replace Him with gospel music. We can’t replace our relationship with Him, with a quoted scripture everyday. We HAVE to take the time to know Him & disconnect ourselves from the things that make us “seem” like we know Him enough to go without really going THROUGH what it takes to ENCOUNTER Him & LIVE out His word.

Sooo, I just had to share that with y’all, because first of all, I am NOT ashamed!!!! I haven’t felt my best lately, if I can just be honest. I’m sure someone can relate & needed this word just like I did! Like my pastor say, it’s tight but it’s right baby! 😂😂😂😂 I pray someone takes something from this! Y’all be blessed! 💛

Luke 10:27 🦋

Surgery

Ok, so I have a somewhat embarrassing confession to make, don’t judge me either! Lol I’m sure someone can relate..

I have a passion for people (which is crazy to even say now, because I was super antisocial & awkward growing up. I honestly didn’t care to even be around people) but anyway, I have this passion that sometimes leads to me going places in my head, like I’ll imagine myself speaking to a crowd of people, encouraging them, praying for them, just being God’s vessel. I’ll even preach to myself sometimes, chile. 😂 so earlier, while I was praying & talking to God, it turned into one of my “sermons” & I asked the “congregation” 😂😂 “y’all ready for the Lord to CUT some things out of your life? Y’all ain’t ready to have surgery!” 🤦🏽‍♀️😭

But then I stopped because I’m like oh wow Lord that’s a word right there!! (At this point I’m hype 😂 I had to hurry up & get out the shower, so I could start writing)

Immediately God said to me, “Going through with surgery is a commitment. Once I do it, it can’t be undone. That thing you want me to fix can only be fixed with your consent. (You got to sign on the dotted line!) performing surgery will SURELY bring about a change that will alter you entire life, but you don’t want that! You wanna keep trying to fix it on your own. You wanna try to manipulate it as much as you can & then come to me like here God, I made it a little better. Put your magic touch on it, so I can keep it in my life! I won’t do it as much, I promise. I know how to turn it on & off now, so it won’t control my life. I fixed it now, so you don’t have to take it completely away!” 😩

(we’re always trying to bargain with God smh)

We say we want change, but our problem is, we want it to be suitable for us.. convenience.. that’s temporary! Which is why we do good for a while, then fall right back.. God wants to do surgery. It’s permanent. Once He cuts that thing up & out, it’s gone forever. God wants to do miraculous works IN & THROUGH us, but there are things we have to allow HIM to change. We can’t change them in our own strength & for some of us, it’s getting to the point where it won’t be changed at our “own leisure” of “choosing” to “let go & let God” it will be snatched from our grip because it’s slowly killing us & those connected to us…..

The thought of surgery is scary, but it’s just that deep, because we’ve been living with these flaws for so long… it’s gonna take more than praying & going to church to fix it. It’s time for GOD to lay HIS hands on us! You ready?!

Ezekiel 36:26-27 (NLT) 🦋

From The Heart

I was sleeping good, but I woke up with a headache & as I was laying here trying to go back, I got frustrated, because two hours later, after meditation with my abide app, listening to a sermon, reading some scriptures on my bible app, I still couldn’t fall asleep. All of a sudden my frustration led to tears & feelings of loneliness, which led me to this prayer. I went straight to my notes in my phone & got to typing. Just thought I’d share for anyone else who has these type of nights.. you may even be up right now, feeling the same exact way..

Lord, fill the voids in my life. Fill every empty part of me that makes me long after anything that is not of you. Heal my brokenness. Put an end to my lustful desires. Everything that I’ve sought after in my life, as a replacement of you, remove it! Hear my prayer, Oh God & renew & restore me. All I need is you. Lord I am begging you to heal me emotionally. I don’t wanna live in bondage anymore. I don’t wanna be a slave to my strongholds anymore. I don’t wanna feel like I need a “physical” thing more than I need you. Your spirit. Your love. Your kindness. I am hurting God. Heal me. Make me whole again. Hear my heart Lord. Hear my cry Lord. I long for you. I search for love & I can’t find it. I search for peace & I can’t obtain it. I search for joy & run with whatever feels good in the moment. I don’t wanna keep doing that. I don’t wanna keep selling myself short for temporary satisfaction. It never lasts, outside of you. It’s never complete outside of you. It’s never whole outside of you. Fill me up God. Less of me & more of you. Take my weaknesses & give me strength. Endurance. Obedience. I believe that nobody else can do it like you can. Lord, my hope & trust is in you. Amen.

How to REALLY ‘Cast your cares’, ‘Give it to God’, or ‘Let Go and Let God’…

BE BLESSTIFIED!

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If you’ve been a Christian or been in church any amount of time you’ve heard it or read it…

1 Peter 5:7 (NKJV)

7 casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.

But, many times when we’re honest with ourselves it’s not always that simple.


Some of our benefits of being in relationship with God can become churchy clichés and sometimes lose their power due to our OVERUSE and UNDER APPLICATION.


Why?

Because we don’t know how! How do you really “Give it to God”? How do you really “Let go and let God”? Have you ever tried to do that and it was still there? How do you do that? Have you ever asked yourself, “Is there something wrong with my faith?” “What am I doing wrong?”


After 48 years on this earth and 21 years as an ordained minister, I’m FINALLY learning how to ‘Cast…

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When Sex Doesn’t Heal Your Brokenness

For anyone else who may need this just as much as I did! 💛

Over and over again I contemplated writing this. Would it be too personal? Would it make people uncomfortable? Is it really necessary to share some of the most personal, intimate, details of my life? These were the three questions that ran through my mind over and over again before I finally opened my computer to write. I began to think to myself how sometimes we as Christians without even knowing it underestimate the power of God’s grace by choosing to hide the not so perfect parts of our lives. When we choose to hide the not so perfect moments of our lives we unconsciously deny the power of what Jesus did on the cross. We unconsciously allow ourselves to become victims of shame and guilt. We unconsciously, without even saying a word communicate to others that what Jesus did on the cross wasn’t powerful enough to deliver and rescue them…

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